T -2 days
yesterday i went up to pittsfield and hung out with my good friend david, who was back home over break. it was super good to see him... brought back tons of memories of good times past. plus it was nice just to hang out, watch some tv, talk about whatever, and just generally have a grand time. he's getting married in june, so this was probably our last time hanging out where things were as they've always been. change is weird, but goodi ended up leaving his house sometime after midnight, which isn't too bad except that it's about an hour and forty five minutes drive back home... so i didn't get back till late. and then i had to walk down to the garage to pick my car up, because that morning i had noticed that it had a flat tire. of course i didn't notice it until i was heading out the door to drive up to david's... and of course my mom loves me so much that she let me borrow her car while my tire was getting fixed. and of course liz picked mom up from work that afternoon. and they're both fantastic and i love them lots. not just because they help me out when i need it... but because i have an awesome family. (oh, and dad's pretty cool too)
so anyhow, on my late-night drive back home, i sort of got lost in my thoughts for awhile. i'd been getting really frustrated with myself, with my car, with my lack of work, and to a lesser extent with God, and it all sort of boiled over and i was like, "jeepers, how come everything is kicking me in the butt?" then i realized... not only do i need to be kicked in the rear on a regular basis to re-focus myself on God, but i have no cause for complaint should anything even remotely resembling hard times come my way. i figured, between camp last summer and the road trip this fall, i had four months of nearly unparalleled awesomeness. how long would you put up with a crap job/situation/life if you knew you could have four superb months where you loved almost every day of it? i figured it' probably be somewhere around 3-4 years. so even if you deduct the year i worked leading into this past summer/fall, i still have no reason to be dissatisfied no matter what life throw my way for another few years.
so that put a different perspective on things. let the butt-kickings begin (i guess).
then this morning, i had an epiphany while in the shower. i'd been sort of plagued/transfixed by a theological conundrum of sorts for quite a while, and then in a flash - when i wasn't even really thinking about it - the answer became painfully apparent. i couldn't figure out why the obvious had eluded my notice for so long, except that i was probably blinded by my own arrogance and stupidity (especially the latter). so anyhow, i feel like i can sleep easier at night with the answer to my impertinent question now so firmly implanted in my unreceptive brain.
i'm praying for good weather this weekend. so far, he snow gods do not look like they want to cooperate. darn them.
nevertheless... 2 days until it starts.
this n.y.e. is gonna rock my face off
(that being said... i wish i could have worked it out to make it to the camp squanto reunion. i miss you guys)
-noonan-
posted by Patrick @ 9:29 PM
1 Comments:
David is getting married? I can't picture it! I still think of him as a skinny teenage kid with some sort of relationship to artificial banana flavoring. Bully for him..
Oh my. I just realized that I'm typing this on THE night of your big event. I wish I could be there. I hope it's incredible and that the clouds part at the most strategic and breathtaking moment! ( and, if not, I hope you all have an incredibly fun time.)
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